welcome to your total creative rejuvenation
respair retreat
INNER WORK
that creates your
OUTER SHIFTS
OUR OFFERING, AUG 8-12
A powerful creative upgrade & transformational retreat hosted at the world’s Top 3 Spa-Resort, CIVANA. Location: a sacred vortex in Arizona.
READY TO FEEL RESPAIRED?
RESPAIR (noun, verb) = a fresh outlook, renewed spirits after challenges, revived vitality
RESPAIR IS FOR
This Is For The Ones Ready To..
Experience a Full Midlife Metamorphosis.
Have a Radiance Reboot (that Shows)
Go From Burnout to Tapped-In Brilliance
Find Fierce Clarity So You Can Activate Your Next Chapter With Graceful Calm & Boundaried Love
Re-wild: Feel a Rekindled Primal Power
And Reclaim Your Authentic Essence (With a Soul Blueprint You can Hold In Your Hand..Yes for Real.)
…all at the world’s Top 3 Spa-Resort!
DOES THIS SOUND LIKE YOU?
Snag one of our very limited spaces with a deposit of just $1,750 USD today.
We’ve Designed This World-Class Experience For…
Writers and actors seeking creative revival, focus & connection to their most courageous voice yet
Coaches feeling disconnected from their purpose, ready to have a clear vision on their highest path forward
Mothers and fathers yearning to rediscover themselves after the all-consuming demands of parenting & work
Nurses and caregivers desperate for deep physical and spiritual renewal
Anyone yearning for a safe and sacred space to step away from their daily routine, and be guided home to their next level of genius, then uplifted & connected with even more self-trust, confidence and soul-nourishment they thought possible.
RESPAIR Retreat at CIVANA August 8-12, 2025
why a RETREAT?
Your facilitator Emily says, “To my mind, retreats are invaluable: the chance to dive deep into your healing work and life’s work by clearing yourself from all the commitments and distractions that make up your real life.
If I don’t go on a retreat once a year, I feel like a ship without a captain just bobbing aimlessly on the sea. That is why I curate safe and sacred containers like RESPAIR - spaces that are guided and self-guided for your own medicine to lead.
You set the intention for your RESPAIR Experience and we ensure there’s ample time for you to explore it inside and outside our workshops each day. Yes, Ezriyah and I are going to blow your mind with each session and the energy and codes we are honoured to carry. And yet free time is essential to hear yourself because…
A well designed retreat opens you up.
It makes you porous - to more wonder, to Big Magic, your own brilliance, and the loving upliftment of your guides and fellow participants.
It makes you malleable - so you can reshape your life to its highest potential.
We hold you there. You taste it, touch it, then take it home.
And there at home after the retreat at CIVANA closes, you’ll receive 6-weeks of group coaching support on Zoom. Ezriyah and I are devoted to ensure your vision takes root and keeps growing at home. That is the RESPAIR Difference. Sound like a divine deal?!”
YOU’LL BE HOSTED at the world’s #3 TOP SPA RESORT
Tucked among 20+ acres of Arizona's succulent-studded Sonoran Desert, a true energy vortex, we’ve chosen CIVANA as the place to offer a lush path to an elevated, wildly vibrant version of you. Expect to travel through inspiring terrain inside and our during our curated personal growth and discovery experience. Outdoor adventures, game-changing creative breakthrough workshops, equine therapy (yes, horses!) and desert bathing. Experience sacred ceremonies guided by two world renowned wellness experts and healers, Emily Bauman and Ezriyah Ben Derrick. Comfortable accommodations. A world-class spa with a specialized treatment included in your package. Delicious food and drinks. Inspiring fellow humans and intimate community vibes. Ample time to relax, rediscover yourself, revision your life and recharge. A surprise or two…
In essence, a total RESPAIR!
You change your life at the same pace you change the story you tell yourself about it. -Brianna Wiest
Come together with a group who has already, on a mystical level, chosen to come together and support eachother on this journey. Do you feel the pull to come and…
Rediscover Your Genius.
Reclaim Your Vitality.
Re-imagine Your Life.
August 8-12, 2025 | Civana Wellness Resort, Arizona
TOUCH YOUR CREATIVE GENIUS IN A TANGIBLE WAY
FIND YOUR NEXT PASSION IN A CREATIVE MASTERMIND SESSION
MEET THE DUO
Emily and Ezriyah met at a mutual friends’ dinner party in 2020 days after they each moved to Tulum, Mexico. The spark of friendship and “we’ve met before in past lifetimes” vibes was instant. The morning after, just before sunrise, Emily was shooting photos for her dress company on the beach. Ezriyah walked up getting ready for his daily surf, and was integrated into the photoshoot with spontaneous joy. (See 6am sunrise photo 👉)
Since then, they have held space for each other, for clients, and walked the beauty way in true friendship. This RESPAIR experience is a shared vision 5-years in the making from these two masculine and feminine powerhouses and their combined skill sets and energetic codexes.
MEET the duo-behind RESPAIR: EMILY and EZRIYAH
TWO WORLD-REKNOWN SPACE HOLDERS & THE GUIDES BEHIND RESPAIR RETREATS:
YOUR ACCOMODATIONS AT CIVANA
There’s a Reason It’s Rated the Top 3 Spa-Resort in the World.
You’ll Feel Natural Luxury the Caress in the Quality of the Sheets and the Care in Every Plate of Food. RESPAIR is an alcohol and red-meat free experience, to accelerate your work with your subtle bodies and energy healing.
WHAT YOU’LL EXPERIENCE:
a few of OUR MODALITIES
“This is the just for me trip I’ve been waiting for!
A RESPAIR is what I deserve, desire and CHOOSE.
Book my spot!
WHAT WE DO BEST
CREATING breakthroughs and positivity through thoughtfully DESIGNED EXPERIENCES
What Makes RESPAIR Unique:
Holistic Healing Modalities
Spending in-person time with Masculine & Feminine Leaders (Emily & Ezriyah)
Daily Kundalini Yoga to crack open and rewire your energy (Heather, a leading practioner at CIVANA and Emily’s bestie)
Equine Therapy: Profound healing through connection with horses
Breathwork to release trapped emotions (the gentle kind)
Inner Child Healing Workshop (Yes, you'll get delightfully messy!)
Evening ritual sound baths for restorative sleep and visioning downloads
Emotional Alchemy
Safe, expertly guided spaces to release grief, rage, and outdated patterns that block your next level from landing instantly
Deep somatic experiences that transform pain into power
Guided sessions to uncover your true zone of genius (in life, art and business) so you’re inspired forevermore
Two world-renown space holders & coaches you get direct access to daily
Intimate Community
Sacred Circle mastermind sessions where the group’s genius accelerates your dream
Group reflections that amplify your vision
Spa experiences
Ample quiet time for creative writing or visioning your next chapter
6 weeks of post-retreat integration coaching - let’s bring your respair vision into 3D lived reality with ease
OUR AGENDA in the VORTEX
The Sonora Desert is an actual energy vortex in measurable ways.
The land will physically and energetically support our container, so we will be considering the land as a co-facilitator of your transformation journey. Plus, in the desert away from false lights you will be able to bathe under the very visible Milky Way.
Emily says, “This is the kind of place where you may hear the stars call you by name.”
Daily Retreat Overview (Subject to Changes)
Friday, August 8: Arrival & Intention Setting
Check-in at luxurious Civana Wellness Resort
Opening ceremony: Connecting, setting intentions
Grounding into the sacred vortex & offerings to the land
Gentle evening sound bath for restful sleep
Saturday, August 9: Releasing & Rewriting
Morning Kundalini Yoga for Liver Cleanse & Courage
Emotional release workshops with Ezriyah
Breathwork and gene keys exploration
Evening equine therapy on the ranch
Personal Spa Treatments
Sunday, August 10: Genius Activation & Inspiration Access Codes
Morning Kundalini Yoga for Self-Trust
Inner child healing workshop (mud and creativity!)
Deep dive into personal blueprints (individual money, creativity & career codes)
Free time to explore the resort & wellness classes
Sacred circle mastermind for breakthroughs
Dream-walking sound bath
Monday, August 12: Integration & Embodiment
Desert Bathing at Sunrise (Guided nature walk)
Morning Kundalini Yoga for a Peaceful Heart
Final breakthrough sessions
Personal archetypal discovery
Surprise celebratory ceremony
Farewell dinner
Tuesday, August 13: Departure & New Beginnings
Closing integration circle
Departure with renewed spirit
Gourmet grab ‘n go breakfasts
Devoted to connect on Zoom for 6 weeks of group coaching & accountability to make your respaired vision a reality
All genders and backgrounds are WELCOME at the RESPAIR RETREAT
Ezriyah says, “Places are limited and are filling up steadily from our waitlist. So please don’t procrastinate if you feel the pull to join, OK? Book your spot today and celebrate this victory for your soul’s evolution! I can’t wait to meet you in person.”
still have QUESTIONS?
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THE GREAT MARTHA GRAHAM ONCE SAID TO THE DANCER AND CHOREOGRAPHER AGNES DE MILLE:
“THERE IS A VITALITY, A LIFE FORCE…THAT IS TRANSLATED THROUGH YOU INTO ACTION, AND BECAUSE THERE IS ONLY ONE OF YOU IN ALL TIME, THIS EXPRESSION IS UNIQUE. AND IF YOU BLOCK IT, IT WILL NEVER EXIST THROUGH ANOTHER MEDIUM AND IT WILL BE LOST. THE WORLD WILL NOT HAVE IT. IT IS YOUR BUSINESS TO KEEP IT YOURS, CLEARLY AND DIRECTLY, TO KEEP THE CHANNEL OPEN!”
COME AND OPEN YOUR CHANNEL TO WITH US AT THE RESPAIR RETREAT 2025.
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